Sometimes i simply HATE it

Too much has happened lately to describe in detail, so I will give the short version:

I HATE sugar. I went off it and felt great, then caved, ate some, and now I can't seem to stop. Bethany, it really is an addiction. Yuck.

I HATE that things get in my way of exercising. I know that blocking off a time to do it is important, but how do I do that when my schedule seems so unorganized lately. We've had non-stop family in town for the last three weeks which makes for delicious temptations and not much private time.

I HATE when I get a motivation and a goal in sight, but then I lose focus. Recently I have found a perfect motivation for losing weight and gaining confidence, and it has helped me some, but I need to always remember it in order to fulfill my goal. Why does it have to be so hard?!

But, most of all, I HATE feeling out of control. And I've been feeling that a lot lately. Whether it's the mountain of clean laundry needing to be folded, and I keep adding to it, or watching my hand continuing to feed my full stomach even though I don't want or need it. I need to plan my days and weeks, and stick to those plans. I need to "act and not be acted upon." I need to use my agency and make the correct choices. By making good, healthy choices I gain confidence and I continue to progress. I need to live every moment and every choice.

Good thing I can sit here and figure these things out as I express them to you. Thanks for listening.