Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Confession Time

My neighbor brought over a plate of orange julius cookies this afternoon (heaven on a plate).  I so needed a treat today, which is fine.  But did I eat one like a healthy person and share the rest with my children?  No.  I snuck back to my room and hid the plate on my dresser.  I ate five and shared one with my hubby.  How embarasing!  That is not who I want to be.  I want to be a healthy, in-control woman, not a skulk off into the shadows and binge type of person.

Aurghhhhhh!  And I was doing so well too.  I mean, relatively speaking.  Three days of exercise in a row has lowered my milk supply, so I'm trying to up my calories (in a good way, not in a cookie way.)

ANYWAY.  On a happier note I did Zumba tonight and I had a breakthrough.  When it comes to the yelling and "Woo-Woo!" ing in class I am totally self conscious.  But I want to be Fabulous.  Being Fabulous means being at least a little brave.  So I did it.  I stopped pretending to yell and actually made some noise.  It sounded dorky in my ears, but I did it.

Two yells forward.  Five cookies back.

Here's to nobler tomorrows.

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