Okay, so I am officially a blog dork. I have checked the blog five times today, wondering if you would have internet access yet and YEAH you do. Amen to loosing the excuses and finding the energy to keep up with our children. You are awesome!
So, today I watched some bits of a show about body image that has an ... ahem ... questionable title. It was called "How to Look Good Naked." I watched pieces from the original British series and a few bits from the American knock-off. The show features a style guru who helps plus-size women with body issues to love the skin they're in. He teaches these ladies how do dress for their body type, how to wear their hair etc. As I saw women who were roughly the same size as me, look into a mirror and feel beautiful for the first time in years, something clicked. I can be beautiful now. And because I am beautiful and strong I am capable of even more greatness in my life. I am not on this path because I am lacking, but because I am capable of more. I can eat healthy because I am fabulous and I deserve to treat myself well. I can exercise because I love to move. These changes do not add to my worth. I am doing it because I am worth it.
This is a big step for someone who hasn't taken a good look in a full-length mirror for the last three months. So, can I maintain the fire to be better and look better and accept who I am at the same time? Can I stop making excuses for my bad habits and make time for better ones? Can I stop calling myself "chipmunk cheeks" every time I look in the mirror? I don't know, but I sure want to try.
You brought me to tears. Thank you so very much.
ReplyDeleteWow. Bethany, that was just what I needed to hear/ read tonight. Every time I look in the mirror I see the muffin top, the acne, and that's it. I want t make your words into my mantra: I am already good enough, beautiful enough, just... Enough. Enough to become better. Thank you!
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